My Journey

Its come to my attention that people who claim to know me are saying things they know nothing about so to set the record straight this is My Journey.. Jan 2015 I joined weight watchers because I needed to be healthier..I also made the decision to quite drinking.. I started a 1200 calorie a day regimen.. eliminated alcohol and went gluten-free.. By Sept 2015 I was 70 lbs lighter.. at my Dr’s request I went to speak to a bariatric surgeon and she suggested I get a VSG procedure (Vertical Sleave Gastrectomy) and I actually said no.. I’m doing fine.. She educated me on where the stomach hormone is created and how when you have a stretched out stomach from being a chronic over eater creates more of the hunger hormone then a successful diet and regimen withstands and that all a VSG does is correct the size of a overeaters stomach to that of a non over eater, and one that will fit my new habits.. She actually gave me this analogy and I will share it with you.. If you were to injure your knee and stretch the tendons you would let a surgeon get inside that knee and repair it so the injury could heal? I said of course I would, She said “Why wont you let me repair what the years of overeating did to your stomach? Sept 21 a mere 3 weeks later because I had already proved to her that my life style change was in fact permanent, I had a VSG procedure.. Humbly I will say I am 17 lbs heavier than my lowest weight.. Why, because it is a constant battle to stay the course of healthier eating.. I still don’t drink and wont drink because of the lives I have seen destroyed and Because of the judgement I have endured although I don’t judge.. You want to drink, go for it.. I don’t.. I love life and spend time with those that love life and human spirit as much as I do.. you can post your comments, you can attempt to disparage me all you want because I know what I know.. and I know for a fact you don’t.. I have never hid the fact that I made the choice to have the VSG..

On the weight loss side if anyone out there thinks that no matter how you change your life for the better, even for those that chose a procedure, that is their journey and for those that have never walked it let me tell you this.. I am in support groups for weight loss.. it’s a journey and no matter what journey you are on, its hard.. bypass, VSG, band.. not one of these paths is taking the easy path.. Many, Many people on this journey fail.. Weight comes back.. I am here to pick any of you up and help you reach the top.. Shame on anyone that wants to disparage one because they have chosen a path you don’t like.. or maybe one that you dont have the courage to accomplish..

The struggle is real.. I’ve lived it.. In fact I am still living it.. I’m a overeater.. I’m an emotional eater, but even the likes of people who hate wont take me off my path.. They are not worth it.. I am more valuable than that..

Big Hugs to all that are on this journey.. Together we can all make it to goal.. One day ❤

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So Many Need This one prayer.. Prayer for a New Job…

As I go through my day multi-tasking to get things done.. Although I am self-employed and not really where I thought I would be by this time in my life I do feel humbled that I have the opportunities that I have.. I come in contact with people every day that need more in their lives.. For me I have not been the one to wait on a job, I create my “job” but not everyone has that will or desire to do just that.. And that is OK , I do hate to hear and see fear in their voice and as a part of their expression but all I can do is Pray..  Below are a collection of prayers that I have come a crossed and I hope having them in one spot here will bless someone with just a little more strength to better their day ❤

PRAYER FOR A NEW JOB ~

IN THE DAY OF PROSPERITY BE JOYFUL, BUT IN THE DAY OF ADVERSITY CONSIDER: SURELY GOD HAS APPOINTED THE ONE AS WELL AS THE OTHER, SO THAT MAN CAN FIND OUT NOTHING THAT WILL COME AFTER HIM.

Ecclesiastes 7:14

Our most gracious and loving Father,You have most lovingly and graciously said that You have loved us with and everlasting love. We acknowledge, Lord, that Your love for us is deeper that the ocean and bigger than the biggest need in our heart. Father, all my longings lie open before You and my sighing is not hidden from You. I commit myself as well as the need for a new job into Your most precious and loving hands.Lord God, fulfill the desire of my heart and bless the work of my hands. The Bible says, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him.” I am completely trusting in Your merit and Your faithfulness this hour. I am certain that You can make a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. You can open a way where there seems to be no way. O Lord, as I go through the selection procedures, let Your mighty uplifted hand rest upon me and grant me Your supernatural grace and mercies in the eyes of all the concerned officials. Please perfect everything that concerns me.Father, my ways are not Your ways, neither are my thoughts Your thoughts. Your ways and Your thoughts are higher than the heavens above. Let Your perfect will be done in this matter. Put Your words into my mouth for the interviews and grant me Your wisdom and knowledge. Let Your mighty presence go before me.I render thanks and praises to You alone, Master, because I believe that You have already performed a miracle in my life.Amen.

Pray that they will see opportunity when it approaches.. When it is right for them.. Praying for a sense of normal to come back to this economy before they all forget what normal felt like…

Prayer for Rising Above Fear ~

Dear Lord, please ease our hearts in this world of uncertainty,
As we balance that which we desire with our true need,
As we look for higher values in the midst of material loss,
As we remember the wealth and abundance born of your creation,
And know that as you move us from fear to love,
We will be enriched with the treasures of spirit and peace. Amen
– Rev. Victor Fuhrman

Prayer for Employment ~

Heavenly father, please sustain my spirit as I search for new and meaningful work.You have blessed me with a healthy body and a keen mind for which I am grateful. I ask that you open my path as I seek employment that will allow me to support my family and myself while serving others and your divine purpose.

In gratitude and grace, Amen.

– Rev. Victor Fuhrman

Prayer for Strength and Faith ~ 

Dear Lord,

In these troubling times,
I am filled with unspeakable fears.
I reach my hand out to you now.
I ask you to walk beside me.
Please help me hold on strong,
During these storms.
And help me hold my hopes high,
Even in the darkest hour.
Amen.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Prayer for Prosperity ~ 

Dear God, source of Love and Life who brings abundance to all,
Please bring prosperity to me and my family now.
We ask that these basic needs be filled:
Money to pay our bills,
Income to meet our mortgage (rent),
Enough to feed us healthy food,
And more than enough for health care and wellness.
Beyond the material needs, please uplift our souls.
Inspire our creativity and resourcefulness.
Guide us in improving our lives.
Please help us to hold on to faith
And let us find peace. Amen.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Prayer for Financial Healing ~ 

From the deep reaches of my heart and soul,
To the highest love in heaven,
I pray for a healing of my financial situation.

I reach a hand to the abundance of the universe,
And pray that I learn to transform my fear into possibility.
Let me open to all the good that exists in this world.

I lift my head up to the sun
And pray that I am inspired to turn darkness into light.
Let me raise myself up beyond my problems.

I look toward the future and what-could-be
And pray that I can believe in myself and my abilities.
Let me know in my heart that I have great strength.

I honor the place of fear that has gripped me,
But I pray that I do not let it own me.
Let me do what I can to bring peace to my financial situation,
And trust that this too will pass.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Blessing to Crisis-Proof Your Relationship ~

May this relationship be blessed.

In times of financial strife,
it is easy to blame your partner
for what is wrong in your life.
Always look deeper for the truth.

May this relationship survive tests.
When things go wrong, It is a chance to show
That you can weather even the harshest storms–together.
Always see your love as bigger than your problems.

May this relationship bring you strength.
When money is tight, you may feel weakened.
Instead, come closer together to solve your problems.
Always focus on the creating the life you want to share.

May this relationship be your safe harbor
There are plenty of things in the world to pull you apart.
Stay strong, two against the world.
Lean into each other and hold on.
Let your relationship be your foundation and your support.

Amen.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Parents’ Prayer of Protection ~

Dear God, Please bless my children.

For this I pray:
May they thrive in any economy.
May they be safe and protected.
May they be healthy and happy.
May they be uplifted by love.
May they be strengthened by opportunity.
May their days be filled with fun and play.
May all their needs be met—always.
May there be food, clothing, shelter, and comfort.
And may their souls be nurtured no matter the state of our world.
Please bless my children in all ways.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Wholeness Blessing – We Are Not Broken ~

We walk in troubled times,
But let us not be troubled souls.

We stand in financial challenge,
But let us not see our lives only in crisis.

We have suffered loss, pain, and indignities.
But we have survived, and we will survive.

We have been hurt and we may be broke,
But we are not broken.

Amen.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Dear God, I Need Cash ~

For this I pray:

Not asking for a million bucks
Or money showing up in trucks
Just need some cash to pay my bills
And financial flow to cure my ills
Not seeking huge amounts
Just enough to make it count
To take care of a basic human need
And take care of those mouths to feed
I know that times are rough
But I want to stand tough
I just need some cash to keep on going
So please God, keep the money flowing.

Amen.

– Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Prosperity Prayer for All People ~

Dear God, please bring prosperity to all people
and bring healing to those who have been hurt by the economic crisis.
We ask that these basic needs be filled for all people:
Money to pay our bills,
Income to meet our mortgages (rent),
Enough cash to provide proper nutrition and healthy food,
And more than enough for health care and wellness.
Please help us to provide for our families.
Beyond the material needs, please uplift our souls.
Inspire our creativity and resourcefulness.
Guide us in improving our lives.
Help us restore balance to our economy.
Point us toward a brighter tomorrow.
Please help us to hold on to faith.
And let us find peace. Amen.

–Rev. Laurie Sue Brockway

Prayer for Strength of Faith During Difficult Times ~

Father, this world sometimes bewilders me and is beyond my understanding. I see poverty and disease, storms and earthquakes, war and killing. Many hearts are bound by ego and fear. Please strengthen my faith in your higher purpose and open my mind to the truth that everything is unfolding according to your divine plan. Let compassion and love for my brothers and sisters flow from me and may we all be uplifted by your glory. AMEN.

Prayer for Strength and Self image ~

Lord, sometimes when I look in the mirror I’m not too happy with what I see. Please let me see me the way you made me, beautiful and perfect just as I am. Help me to hold this image in my mind and heart as I follow my life’s path. Allow others to witness your light shining through me as I walk with confidence, grace and a smile on my face. Amen.

 Motivational Quotes ~

“When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. ”
-Franklin D. Roosevelt

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”
-Harriet Beecher Stowe

“The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning.”
-Ivy Baker Priest

“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

               “Most of us, swimming against the tides of trouble the world knows nothing about, need only a bit of praise or encouragement – and we will make the goal.”- Jerome Fleishman

“If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.”
-Flavia Weedn

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”
-M. Kathleen Casey

“A bend in the road is not the end of the road…unless you fail to make the turn.”
-Author Unknown

“We acquire the strength we have overcome.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

If you know someone with struggles.. pick of the phone and offer them some words of encouragement.. Offer them a prayer..It’s free ❤ You have Nothing to Lose, but a little time ❤

Always Be Blessed,

Kathy

RIP ~ Zig Ziglar  1926 – 2012

Zeek Rewards Closes it’s doors..

Through out the past year of me venturing into the Network Marketing arena.. I have found myself be approached by so many opportunities…  Over whelming at times to say the least.. I was approached about Zeek twice just last week.. Several times in the past year… I am a research junkie.. and so it wasn’t hard for me to find that there were concerns with Zeek.. But that said, people were making money like crazy.. “Get in and get out”, I was told by one person last week.. I wished her will with Zeek and simply made the choice it was not for me..

 

Let me tell you why.. I don’t want to ever be a jumper.. My commitment and my conviction is with Visalus.. I want to build this team for “Forever”

As a kid my mother moved around a lot and to explain what “a lot” means.. I never went to a school for a full School year with out transferring  and the average was 3 schools a year..until I was a Sophomore in High School.. So moving is just not something I am comfortable with.. I have always felt to my core that Visalus was a Forever company.. I am building my business for the years ahead of me not for the right now.. I may not be the fastest runner but I know I am one of the strongest when it comes to team support and longevity…

So for all the Zeek associates out there, My heart goes out to you.. as I know how it would hurt me if the business I had so much passion for suddenly closed its doors..  My thoughts and prayers are with each and every one of you as you get through this uncertain time..

Included are some links to more information from news station about the Closing of Zeek Rewards…

MyFox8News Lexington on Zeek Closing…

Dispatch of Lexington..

No Matter How Slow You Go…

As the saying goes.. No Matter how slow you go you are still lapping everyone on the couch..

As a Network Marketer there is no particular boss to say that you have not met your goal.. You are a entrepreneur and that means it is up to you and the only recourse you will have by not meeting a goal you might have set is what you put yourself through.. What I have seen happen the most is a person will join the team.. have amazing and possibly exhausting unreachable goals, time rolls around and they find themselves in a position of facing what they perceive as failure.. Wake up people.. there is no failure unless you quit… Doing a business that involves direct sales has no correct speed… Now keeping that is mind, those who go faster and do so by following the system that the company that they are with will undoubtedly find the most amount of success the fastest… Now that being said, not everyone is going to have the ability to “run like a race horse” and that is ok… Do what you can at a pace that let’s you stay in control.. Here at Visalus we have people running to Ambassador or as I like to say it beings I am a Race fan, 0-60 in 4 seconds flat… but you know what.. it doesn’t impress me… What impress and excites me is when the Ashleigh’s of the world after more then a year in the business really get in touch with their why and begin to Run, When the a couple whom has been with Visalus for more then 5 years hits the rank of Ambassador, or actually 1 Star Ambassador because that showed me they were not quitters.. There is now speed that is to slow… Just don’t quite and set small goals that you will know you can complete.. Make 3 phone calls a day to give out your website.. This is not hard and something everyone can do.. Stay plugged in and go to the trainings.. Everyone needs training… Get out there and make it happen.. Even if it is a little bit at a time.. ❤

My Morning Started…… and It got me thinking…..

I woke up this morning and as a ritual the first thing I always do is to put on my glasses and grab my phone… For example this morning I woke up to 63 emails, several Facebook Notifications, a few @ mentions on Twitter but the most amazing way to start my morning I woke up to a Private Message on Facebook from a new Friend whom I have met from being in Network Marketing, and no she is not on my team… As I reflect over the last year I think of the things that have changed so drastically for me… The obvious ones are clear… I have and still am losing weight… but one probably looks in and thinks that is the most satisfying thing for me… no it’s not… Ok so the next one might think that it is the money… Yes we are making money our first year in Network Marketing and honestly we are making GOOD money, but again not what I find the most rewarding… It is the fact that I know that I have always been the mentoring type that wanted to help all of those out there that I could “succeed”… so much to the point in an effort to stay as productive as I could, my Real Estate Broker offered me a private suite with my own entrance as I would not be so accessible to the young and upcoming agents in the office and all though I loved to mentor them I know that it in turn was taking time away from my business and that the best business decision was to make that change….  6 years ago I guess you can say I went into hiding…”as far as my Real Estate Office went” no more communication with those that really needed my help…The Real Estate industry took a turn for the #!?#?!?? to say the least and basically since then it has been head down and run because if you don’t you wont stay on top… I have done ok… Even with backing off I am still in the top of my field but as I sit here I think, at what expense… I stopped doing what I love to do most…. In that field I stopped mentoring my colleagues…

I started Network Marketing a year ago… I knew I needed better health and I saw a glimmer of fun in this business and a hope for some financial prosperity, but most of all I needed to lose weight… so I jumped in…

Over the last year I have been going to events.. I have been meeting new people, I have built a team that I truly love like family, but most of all there is no hiding… I have been able once again to offer advice to any one that needs it… to once again just be the person my heart wants to be… no more hiding for me… My only wish was I would have found this industry years ago….

Now I started writing this blog because I awoke this morning to a Private Message from a person that is not even on my team, a person that does not have any benefit to be nice to me because I can not physically support her business… someone who spoke from the heart and she simply wrote to me this morning ” I love your amazing heart and ability to be genuine!!! You are the most authentic person and I am glad to call you friend!” (and No this person is not on my payroll or in my business…lol ) I do my best to be there for everyone… and for the person that left me this message… “I love your heart too and very blessed to call you a friend also..” Thank you for making my day ♥

So if I can offer a word of advice… if what you are doing to make a living is making you hold back a quality that truly satisfies your soul… find something else to do, it simply is not worth giving up what you love to do for something that you think you must do…. because if you are not doing what you love to do then your misery will drown your soul… I know it almost did mine..  no more.. I can honestly say “I am back” and I love how it feels ❤

 

A week of reflection…

Picture of Summer Fly's Daughter with her daughters best friend as they support each other.

May 22 I was another year older… No big deal as the day would begin, just another day, another year… The events of that day will forever be remembered for many as the Nation’s deadliest Tornado touches down in Joplin Mo. I went to bed that day just like any other day… I woke up at 2:45 am to find that my husband was not in bed.. A light glowed outside our bedroom door which is our loft office so I called out quietly asking him ” What are you doing” He replied, I remembered I needed to authorize a bill pay payment that he had forgot to do earlier in the day, But then he walked in the bedroom and said, A tornado has hit your brothers town of Joplin… I sat up in bed and said, What? He said it is all over the internet… Normally I am on the computer every day but that day being my birthday we were out and about and I concentrated on time with my kids and stayed off the computer and the TV was not on… so I was unaware of the happenings that day in Joplin… I immediately texted him and called him. Left messages then got up and got online. I was horrified by the devastation… A sense of helplessness was overwhelming me, but to be honest it was also a sense of guilt and fear. Fear that I could lose another immediate family member that I have never met…

You see the internet had led me to a father that I was torn away from as a very small baby.. One that I never met face to face. We talked online, spoke over the phone and always talked of the day that we would actually get together. Then without warning he died of a sudden heart attack… Time lost, and never to return. That day is still as vivid as if it was yesterday and it was actually February 5, 2006, more than 5 years ago… I have 3 half brothers, a step brother and a step sister that I have never met. All but one live in the Joplin area. I sat at the computer that night asking myself “why have I not made it back there…?” I could go on and on about work, finances, money, obligations… but really all just excuses that shouldn’t even exist…

I sit here and look at the devastation that the people of Joplin are dealing with and the loss of life that is so tragic, High school seniors whom lost their lives just leaving graduation… so much tragedy… so much pain… but feeling so blessed that my family and their friends were all spared… a miracle in itself, spared the loss but they are not spared the pain as I am sure it is so painful to be there day in and day out as people are trying to pick up the pieces and move on. I sit here and wish there was some way I could pack up the RV pay all my bills for three months and drive back there and help. My husband is a contractor and I know I could find something to do to help… but again life must go on here and there just is not enough money in the bank to just stop everything and to leave.

God has given me a second chance to take the time to meet my family face to face.. I will make it a priority to make it happen this year.. I am praying to the lord each and every day thanking him for keeping them safe. The outcome could have been so different.

The Holidays are Upon Us!

Well the Holidays are quickly approaching.. It seems earlier and earlier every year the decorating begins… I actually like this as it seems the older I get the faster it comes and goes, so for it to be here a little longer for me is great… My kids are older, (teenagers) so I do miss the excitement of Santa Clause and presents under the tree that they use to once have… Now it is about electronics and vacation. For me it is a time to reflect the end of the year… To give Thanks for all that has been bestowed upon us and to Thank The Lord for all the Paths he has led us on and taken us through. It is a time when I love to watch the Oldies but Goodies like ” A Christmas Carol” , “Miracle on 34th St.” and all the Lifetime Holiday Movies..

It is also a time to enjoy traditions, both old and new.. Some are cooking, vacations spots and gift exchanges.. A time to reach out and see the folks maybe you have not seen all year…. A time to let go of the little things that might have kept you apart.. Now don’t get me wrong… big things sometimes just should stay the way they are, but little things, Let go and enjoy the Holidays with friends and family… I know that is my plan and I hope all of you have a plan in place to get you joyously through this Holiday Season.